Practice Walking Without a Cane

Boosted by the news i got at the doctor earlier this week, since yesterday i have been walking outdoors without a cane.

I can feel more muscles working and being taxed, for my lower abdomen tightened up the same way it did when I switched from the quad cane to a regular cane.  Of course that meant I would start having more bladder accidents again when i walk, but that's okay - I know this will get better. 

I think I have two more stages to go before the bladder gets back to near complete recovery.  That is is I can run for a distance longer than my living room, and then it would just be my muscles closing up shop while I sleep.

Again, I think how much improved I am now compared to a year ago when I was in a wheelchair and voided via catheter, and evacuating via digital stimulation.

Feeling Jay and Carrying a Cane

In George M. Cohan's song, "45 Minutes From Broadway," he writes about it being a "jay atmosphere."  I didn't know the meaning of "jay," until I researched the origin of the term, "jaywalking."  "Jay," means countryside, and "jaywalking" would be how one walks in the countryside - crossing the street in the middle of a road. 

Mostly because I can't, but I don't "rush" anymore when I walk, and I feel that even when after I have no need to use a cane, I will still carry one.  Carrying a cane is a hassle.  Just to carry it is, and then even more of a hassle when I need to set it someplace.  However, many times when I walk with a cane, I do so leisurely, and I don't even attempt to rush.  The effect is that my mind set changes sometimes - I relax, thus, I feel "jay," when I walk with the cane.

I don't know how it'll be when I'm fully recovered, but for now, I'll take time to smell the roses when I go out for my walks.